Why i’ve been so quiet lately


So… yes, I’ve been a bit quiet.

Not disappearing entirely, just sort of floating in that dreamy in-between space. You know the one — where time feels slower, softer, and your body is quietly asking for rest and solitude and maybe fewer notifications.

I took a proper summer break this year. One where I gave myself permission to just be. Not editing. Not emailing. Not posting. Just soaking up slow mornings and light-filled days. Letting the sun do its thing on my skin while my mind wandered wherever it wanted.

But as that pause started blending into August, something shifted. I felt this deep craving for a space that was only mine. Outside the house. Away from the hum of chores and everyday distractions. I needed somewhere sacred. Somewhere I could return to myself, without roles or expectations.


A Summer House!!

Small glass jars with cork stoppers filled with various dried spices and seasonings arranged on a wooden shelf.
Rustic gray cabinets decorated with holiday ornaments and candles create an elegant Christmas display.
Rustic wedding decorations with white lace tablecloth and twine hanging across an elegant farmhouse setting.
White and gold customizable banner draped elegantly across an ornate floral-patterned wall for event decoration.

It’s small and a little wild, nestled at the end of the garden. But this space holds me in a way few others do. It’s where I paint (messily). Where I sew. Where I light candles and whisper to the universe and listen for whatever whispers back.

There’s a little altar full of intention — crystals, jars of herbs, incense, lavender, salt, worn-out brushes, angel cards, and tiny treasures that hold stories only I really know. It’s cluttered in a soft, enchanted sort of way. And somehow, being here helps me breathe differently. Slower. Deeper. Clearer.

I didn’t plan to write about it. But I think part of reemerging — after such a gentle season — is letting you in on the pieces of life that happen quietly behind the scenes.

Wedding detail photos show elegant floral arrangements and delicate white decorations in a romantic rustic setting.
A desk workspace displays an artist's watercolor supplies including paint sets and paper for creative projects.
A wooden pen holder organizer sits on a dark desk with various writing instruments and office supplies.
A row of ornate hardcover books displayed in front of a floral wallpaper backdrop.

Because while I’m here, soaking up this slow sacred space... I’m also still on-call.

Holding space for one beautiful family as they welcome their baby boy soon.

Doula hat on. Camera in hand. Heart wide open.

I’m in that liminal place — between the deep stillness of summer and the powerful presence birth work demands. It’s tender. A little unpredictable. And it’s exactly where I need to be right now.

This little summer house helps me stay rooted while I hold space for others.

It lets me refill my cup in- the- between, so to speak.

So that’s where I’ve been.

And where I am.

In the quiet. In the in-between.

Creating, waiting, softening.

And always — always — returning to what feels true.


With love from my little enchanted corner in Beckenham,

Deborah xxx

A vintage-style beach cottage signage with welcome lettering features distressed blue and white colors and seashell motifs.
Rustic wooden rocking chair with decorative 'Happy' pillow sits against vintage floral wallpaper in cozy corner.
Rustic wooden wall with mounted vintage-style bell lamp fixture illuminated by warm sunlight through green foliage.
Open photo album showing sequential page numbers and text segments in a dimly lit setting.